Bucket Lists

One day I opened a box filled with pictures, writings, and older items like CDs and cassettes. In the Receptacle of Yesterday (which was written on the box), I ran across something called, ‘My Gay Bucket List.' This list consisted of distant pleasures and obtainable goals. Reading the memories, I was amazed at what was written.

My Gay Bucket List at age 30

• Get boo'd up
• Find a good job
• Be able to talk to my parents without feeling embarrassed
• Make time with friends
• Vacation in all the hot spots
• Buy a home
• Be a Top at least 10 times
• Try dating outside my race
• Trying not hookup with thugs, married men, or so call straight men
• Finding Jesus

Looking around the area, I found another paper attached to the first list. The date was exactly 5 years later. This one read:

My bucket list at 35 with some variations.

• Get Married
• Maintain a good profession
• Save money for an old age
• Move enemies out of my life
• Vacation in the right spots
• Sell a home
• Try love being versatile
• Fall in love with a nice man
• Don't hook up with anyone
• Build a relationship with God

To humor myself, I decided to write an updated bucket list for the next 5 years. 
 
My Gay Bucket list at 40 and not budging. 

• Build a relationship with a man I can love
• Be the best at my current profession
• 401k, retirement, and capital are my best friend
• It is about the quality of friends that matter
• Fun is where the heart is
• Have a home where I can recharge my energies
• Sex should be good in what position
• Repeat number 1
• Hookups shouldn't be part of my lifestyle
• Believe in God

​As time passed, I've reached 40. I have only 4 out of 10 items completed. But what really shocked me, was the fact I didn't change any of my things, I just modified them. Which means, I need to get a fucking life or change up some shit. Maybe I should write… oh, forget it. I will quit forging list and just live my not so happy life. 
 

Morris H.